I think being in quarantine is even worse for my mental health than I thought. I didn't notice it at first but I am more sad than happy, and I've cried myself to sleep more in the past 3 weeks than I had in the whole 6 months that I was away at school. I feel like I'm back in high school, but even then I was happier than I am now. I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this, I need to this to be over soon, like really soon because my heart is starting to get heavy again, and I don't want it too. I finally, finally, felt the weight lifting, slowly, slowly, but it was happening and I was smiling better and pulling myself together.
Now we're back here and It's like any progress I've made is disappearing and I can't catch happiness for longer than a couple hours at a time. I'm tired, I just want to go away.
I've looked into online therapy, for now, I think I need it. Were trying 7 cups tonight, i will update you, my zero readers (which is how I like it), on how it goes.
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